Let the Countdown Begin!

Since it is now September, I think I can make the countdown official. Twenty-six days from today I will be a changed woman. Only 26 days, it seems like it was going to be a "forever" wait just a few weeks ago and now here it is that I am beginning to panic about everything. Will I get my house cleaned and organized before my Mother gets here, what are we going to do for transportation while she is here (she can't drive a standard), what is she going to do all day, will she be bored, will Matthew behave while she is here, where should she sleep, etc, etc, etc! My mind runs non-stop about this stuff. I am not so worried about the surgery, recovery, what I will drink or eat, but more so about the things around me. I think these kinds of worries are probably normal, at least I hope they are? Somebody please tell me they are! :)

I have begun to think about the surgery. I have never had real surgery. I have had a couple of both-end-oscopies over the years and a heart catheritization, but I have never been intubated and the thought of all that scares me a little. I was talking to my friend Shaye the other day about it all. She had her gallbladder removed with a laproscopic procedure and was able to tell me, without scaring me, what it was like for her. It made me feel so much better. When she says I will go to sleep and wake up and wonder if it is over yet, I believe her. She has experienced it!

I still have no doubt this is the right step for me. This is a tool, and I believe it, to help me change my life. I am so excited about these changes and look forward to every one of them, even if they aren't pleasant at that time they happen. So, let the counting begin...26...25...24...23...22...21...20...

Thanks for reading!